I've been able to rest and try to relax the last few days. It's hard to know physically and emotionally how long this miscarriage will impact my day to day life. Emotionally I know they'll always be a part of me that feels nothing but gratitude and love for the little one we never got to meet. The other part of me is dealing with the "why me?", "how come?", "I just don't get it" part.

I've been blessed to have very understanding clients (as I work freelance). Only a few of them know and they've been very accommodating while I've been unavailable this week. I've made a decision to not travel as much for work anymore. I don't want to be away from my husband as much as I've been the past two years. We have so much fun together and it just doesn't make any sense anymore to keep working and be gone like I've been. Slowing down was inevitable as we so badly want to start a family... so I figure no time like the present.

Speaking of presents. I think I'm going to give myself a little one this weekend in the form of a pedicure. Thanks to spendy gas prices and saving for the baby I've not had a pedicure in a couple of months... opting to do at home pedi's... that regardless of how hard I concentrate, never ever come out looking as nice as the professional ones.

I'm continuing to feel the physical effects of miscarriage... and this has to be one of the worst parts... it's like having the worst period of your life. Every time you make a potty stop you're reminded that you're no longer pregnant, no longer expecting, no longer within 9 months of babydom. While I'm going to take my time to grieve I am also well aware that life must go on... and so it shall.

Hey gals. Sorry for the silence. I took almost a two week hiatus from "Craving Baby". Just trying to not stress while waiting to test. As of today it's been 32 days since my last period... and I think I see a very very faint line on the preggers test. It may just be my imagination... but my DH sees it to. So I'm thinking there's a good chance I'm pregnant. I'll test again tomorrow or Tuesday to see if I get a darker line.

Hope all the mamas out there in the blogosphere are doing great.

~Craving Baby

Remember when you were a kid and two weeks felt like an eternity? As an adult time seems to speed up and before you know it another week, or another two weeks have flown by. Now that me and the DH are TTC, time once again seems to have slowed down. The two week wait between the big "O" (ovulation) and taking a preggers test feels like an eternity. Being as my schedule is a little off thanks to the birth control I'm hoping to be able to test in about a week and crossing my fingers that AF "no-shows" around the 20th.

Anyone else in the 2 week wait?

If you and your DH are in the baby game and trying to conceive check out this article from The Cradle. Written by Ann Douglas, author of The Mother of All books, this article, Countdown to Conception is a great source of info for couples that are looking to start their family.

Being on the journey towards "mommyhood" and TTC (trying to conceive) means that I am on the outlook for all the good info I can get. While surfing the web today I found an article on MomLogic that was insightful and thought you might all enjoy it too. It's dated May 1st of this year... but the date doesn't make a difference in separating fact from fiction.

Here are the four conception myths that editor-in-chief Kim Hahn of Conceive magazine addresses for the MomLogic readers...

Myth #1. Have as much sex as possible
Myth #2. Women are to blame for most infertility
Myth #3. You can't control what you have
Myth #4. Having baby sex feels like a chore

Check out Kim's answers on MomLogic.